fallen sickk , din go to school.
heard tat got maths test , have to retake.
it's raining heavily now !!
cant go anywhere .. except facing the computer.
got lots of hmwk to do ehs.
have to complete fnn and stuffs.

ii m backk to blogging ..
hope there's no more emo stuffs and post.
just hope tat - shi jian ke yi dan wang yi qie -
and LAME ppl pls GO AWAY.
this blog dont welcome you.

of course i knw wad is done cannot be undone.
i dont find aniithing lame here. that's wad i wanna say.
if u were to said it as lame. den let it be.
i din add salt and pepper to ur words to make all of u hate each other.
if i did tat wont u all be hating each other.
whn i rly care and put in gud words for u all, and u all doesnt appreciate.
wad i did was just being a hypocrite. i dont, and im not.
u all can say how u dislike abt the person , and i cnt .
if i were to put in gud words for the person u were trying to scold abt whn u were angry,
u all will say i m helping tat person instead of u.
den i help tat person also cannot , help u aso kena blame.
den wad can i do.
i kept quiet and u all said i m not agreeing wid wad u all said.
i din plan to make aniione of u hate each other.
i swear i had not think abt tat. but u al just dont believe.
how i treat my fwen was to be sincere. i said wad it shld b said.
idont go arnd saying whu u all hate and things like tat.
i dont knw why u all must say until like tat.
u r trying to be difficulit to me. wad i did waswrong all wrong.
even how much u have scolded me, blaming me wad every word i have said.
fwens r to b trusted to the end, have a chance and settle evertthing.
but u all dont do tat.
everyone wld have make mistake. and veryone sld b given a chance to explain wad they have done wrongly. even today, if i m the one whu is totally wrong at fault i cld b nv given a chance by u all bcos u all just dont wan to hear me out.
wid a mind of olwaes thinking i m the bad person. wad i did was wrong all wrong.
every word i said is to harm ur ...
ii rly didnt.
no matter how much i said. ur wil stil nt believe.
bcos i m olwaes the extremely bad person among u all

wadever lah.
if u r not the one to spam my blog. good for u.
and tat person tat spam my blog. u r so lame can.
yayaya. jie shi jiu shi yan shi.
even i jhie shi u all will aso ting bu jing qu, den wad for.
u all wan blame den blame lah. i dont care.
say liao u dont believe, and if u all r blaming me frm spoiling ur relationship,
den all i have to say. i didnt.
is up to u to believe anot.
and one more thing........
i din treat u all as retarded.
all along i trreat u as fwen , a gud fwen.
but now it seems tat u r the one whu hav not me treating the right way whereby fwens should.
and u have mentioned tat we could oni be classmates ..
but the way u treat me, isnt classmate but an enemy.
why must we dov tat eveytime.
see each other den u all will diao me. like tat call classmates?!!
and frm the situation now, i think u all wan to stay it this way till we graduated.
but i rly dont hope we could be like tat.
there's alwaes a solution for every problem.
is just a matter of u wan to solve it anot.
is not can or cannot but wan or dont want.
forget it.
saying sorry aso no used as wad u said. !!

to ~
i knw whu u are actually.
wadever it is, i nv big mouth abt you.
whn did i betray you or wad did i did tat betray you?
i rly dont understand. wadever kind of language you r trying to scold me in. i dont care.
i couldnt believe tat is a fwen tat i have been trusted all along tat scolded me a HYPOCRITE.
i swear i nv say aniithing abt u more den whu u r ...
ii bear no hatred for u , wad for i bad mouth abt u.
i donknw wad let u have a sudden chnge of attitude to me.
but u din even wan to clear and sort out this prob all u do is to blame me. saying i m such a person.
let me tell u this,
im UGLY, i have got NO BEAUTY, and wadever bad things u wan to say abt me.
but !! iim not a BETRAYER.
iim not lik that one u describe as.
i alr said ... i m not betraying u in anii wae.
u think of me as the one whu cause the quarreling and misunderstandings between u and ur fwen.
and i m certainly not the one whu cause we whu r quarreling.
we still have to be classsmates for another year or so.
i dont wish to hav an enemy in klass .. neither do i wan to treat u as one.
i guess we rly need to sort out this prob. say it out clear. wad for talking behinds ppl bac, critising ppl, acting blur and sorts.
we once can b rly gud fwens but ... why must we bcum enemys in such a seconds by some words u heard. perhaps u tihink u cnt trust me aniimore. but no matter wad.
even u wan to sentence me to death ... there will b a reason behind it. there would be...

if i rly did aniithing wrong. i apologise. but did i ?!@
is not tat i din wan to admit, but ... i rly dont knw wad did i do wrongly.
tell me.

woo ~ iim here AGAIN.
today, i post so manii times sia.
hah.
this shall be the last one !!
HAHAHA..
rmb to tag me orhhh.
i sat at in front of the com for the whole day,
at times i felt .........
sad
angry
depress
tired
bored
happy
LOLS. now iim quite relax.
BE MYSELF is the BEST , i wont care too much of how others think abt me nw.
most importantly , is to let me feels good.
but of course , i wont do aniithing to harm ppl. bcos i dont feel gud tat wae.
HAHAHA. lalalalalalads ~~ ~ ~
i shall stop here, BYE !!
tag me worhhs !! =)

could you teach me how to NOT be an annoying person ..
could you teach me how to NOT be an irritating person ..
could you teach me how to NOT be hated by others ..
could you ? ?
can you forget wad i did tat annoyed you?
can you forget wad i did tat irrtate you?
can you forget wad i did tat makes you hate/dislike me?
can you ? ?
i guess this is rather lame.
FORGIVE ME.
i knw tat the noones is in wrong , except me.
i blamed myself for everything i have done/said.
i m aso an human, i dont enjoy being said as .. =.=
but there's olwaes someone tat wuld certainly said this.
perhaps, wad i did was rly =.=
try to chnge, and chnge for the better.
wad i mean was, changing in terms of character.
tat's one of my mission , i have to complete it.
and can i ? -imnotsure-

if you were to treat me nicer, i wld b happier.

even if you dislike me, pls dont go around saying.

if you are unhappy wid me, say it out.

dont speak ill behind my back, i HATED it.

dont go arnd spreading rumours which is TOTALLY not true, i HATE tat too.

you acted nice in front of me, but actually you hated me.

you accused me for snatching ur fwens away, but all i wan to say is .. I DIDNT

you blamed me for being EXTRA among you all, i cnt say aniithing.

bcos ii rly AM.

wad i say to you, you wld turn the words and all bcums my fault.

can i trust you for not telling others wad i told you?!!

esp, ur rly gud fwens.

if you ever wanted me to leave you all, just say it.

i will leave ....

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tat's all i wan to say,

i guess you might hate me after reading this.

but if can, pls dont.

i dont wan to lose aniimore fwens.

i precious everyone of them.

ii rly did.. iim serious...

is there someone whu rly listens to wad i say, and dont laugh at my stupidity?

is there someone whu cares wad i did, and dont insult me?

is there someone whu wanted to share aniithing wid me, and trust me for not saying it out?

.

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share ur joy and burden wid me,

i wld b more den happy to lend u my ears.

i doesnt like aniione tat shed crocodile tears.