confused?

early in the morning , cousins came and drove me to sent my aunt to the airport.
den drive me back home to chnge.
den he drove me out to shop too ..
felt so cool sitting in sport car.
went bac hm in the evening ..


denn bath ... and came online.
denn felt unhappy.
rly rly unhappy ...
just felt tat ii m sort of ............. erms ,
irritating ?! invisible ?!
haiis ~ dontknow lah.
and those questions came back tu mi again ..
saying tat ,
" think , do ii rly hab fwens ? "
" think , do ii 配 to be wid thos fwnes ? "
" think , do dey treat mi as a passer-by/ stranger or a fwne ? "
actually ..
these questions hab been wid mi in the past too.
but wonder why iis here agaiin.
noone wil answer those sort of lame question ..
cos dey wont understand..
aiiya. so 烦.
wth wth wth.
grrs ...
and msn sucks.
if can i wont want to talk through msn le.
mus wait fer pipo tu rpl lyk siao.
some dont even reply lorhs.
damn siian , nort trying to blame or wad.
is just tat feeling damn irritated..
or even dontwant tok liao luhh

wadd ii wan now was just ..
to live a simple and happy life.
but ii m sure without fwnes and pipo wid care and concerns .
ii cnt do it by myself .. and so ........
ii cnt do aniithing . but just wait till i m died.