i used to have a friend whom a good girl.
she's quiet. she's caring. she's loyal. and most importantly she treats me like a friend.
but recently, things seems to have changed.
i realised she isnt the one i used to know anymore.
i hate it. i hate myself.
i hated the way she acts as if she knows many people.
i hated the way she lied to me and treat that nothing has happen.
i hated the way that she talks to others and ignoring me.
i hated the way that she wanted to push me aside.
i hated everything she does now.
i know that i cant changed her.
but what she does nowadays was far too much to be acceptable.
she joins in the fun or insulting me.
she joins in the fun of everything a true friend shoulnt have done.
but she still doesnt realised it. dontask me who is this person.
i hate her now. hope this is just a temporarily state.
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my life hasnt been good recently ):
friends dont seems to see me as friends =
people i hang out with seems not to welcome me :X
down with lots of stressed ]:
i cant cope with my studies anymore.
languages: my standard dropped lots.
Combined Humanties: not interested anymore.
Science: difficulties in remembering and working out solutions.
Maths: wasnt able to understand a single thing about maths. everything..
F&N: getting worse. research not done. have to chnged DM and sorts. im so nrt prepared.
urghhs. things just gonna be so bad ! i hate my life lots and lots.
helping hand please :X
o lvls. and im so nrt ready.
im gonna study only my o lvl chinese.
NOW ! chinese come first. hope to at least get a B3 or A2 [:
my eyes are swollen. my head hurts. and i've an ULCER D:
off to rest :X